hello hello.

2009-05-09T13:23:00.001+08:00

ehhhh i'm damn bored. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

2009-04-30T10:36:00.001+08:00

:D

the way she dances at the last part, SUI!

2009-01-26T10:43:00.003+08:00

i think i must really still look like a kid
i went to buy bubble tea and the uncle just said xiao di uncle zhu ni xue yue jin bu!
haha ok nevertheless i need it. all A+ this semester! haha. ok i was just joking.
i just wana pull my cap up to 3.8 at least.

ANYWAYS HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

2009-01-25T01:04:00.000+08:00

ahh. ok i just cleared the tutorial that i was supposed to complete last week. hardworking eh.
FOR CAP 5.0!

2009-01-23T23:03:00.001+08:00

2009-01-23T22:58:00.001+08:00

2009-01-18T01:10:00.001+08:00

对酒当歌，人生几何？
譬如朝露，去日苦多。
慨当以慷，忧思难忘。
何以解忧，唯有杜康。
青青子衿，悠悠我心。
但为君故，沉吟至今。
呦呦鹿鸣，食野之苹。
我有嘉宾，鼓瑟吹笙。
明明如月，何时可掇。
忧从中来，不可断绝。
越陌度阡，枉用相存。
契阔谈宴，心念旧恩。
月明星稀，乌鹊南飞。
绕树三匝，何枝可依？
山不厌高，海不厌深。
周公吐哺，天下归心。

2009-01-10T22:20:00.001+08:00

yay i scored A for my lsm0211 and st2610. sweeeeeeet. :)

2009-01-03T02:04:00.003+08:00

2008 has been a great year!(except for certain unpredictable/predictable events which most of my closer friends know. think bestfriend.)

Ok I admit I've had too much fun and actually didn't put much effort into studying. Yes..I only started like 2 weeks before. NEVER BEFORE IN MY LIFE HAVE I TRIED OR DARED TO DO THAT. haha. AFter the results were released, yes, I'm beginning to feel the pinch. (argh should have worked harder feeling/shouldn't have started studying so late kinda feeling). I guess that could somewhat be my 2009 resolution.

I'm thankful for the friendships made in 2008! Glad to have met a few like-minded people..sure does make things a whole lot easier in trying to bring across certain sensitive topics. I was quite shocked when one person said to me 'u ok anot? why ur sms all one word one word one' Though it was somewhat a false alarm, but at least I know i have friends who care. :)

Linda, I'm glad that I was able to 'add life to your life'! You've done no lesser! In fact you also added weight to my life at some point of time. I just suddenly feel like doing this even though we aren't thinking the same, so here goes *hit yr head*
Thank you too for listening to all my crap! :)

Rebecca, as usual la you havoc girl. Stop being so havoc la! Haha don't worry you can rant the same thing all over again because I don't get sick of it. Why? BECAUSE BFF WORX! haha! eh no it should be bFf w0rxXxXxXx. You know i don't mean it when i say you're irritating right? haha but actually the 'eh i got something important to tell you..i need to sleep now' is well..irritating. Never mind, as you put it, irritatingly nice. Really wanna say a big thank you to you for helping me resolve certain stuff which I think I'd have gone mad over if I were to settle it by myself.Thank you also for hearing me rant and giving me valuable advise to be a stronger person and to lead instead of direct. Haha i think you can hold a VIP pass in my life. :)

Adeline, I'm sorry for not picking up your calls or replying your calls with a message. Sorry for not being able to meet up with you as often as before. Haha, it's not that i don't wanna talk to you but it's just at the wrong time! So, let's meet up with pigpig and Chris soon.

I think the top priority for 2009 resolution goes to PULLING MY CAP UP. I'm determined! A+ for all my modules. EASY PEASY. (Actually, skipping lectures and tutorials can be counted in here)

Secondly, to be a more patient, understanding, accommodating and the like. Seriously, it's damn difficult though with erm bf. =\

Thirdly, hope i break a leg and get to downgrade. Lol.

Ok, that's it for now. Will update when I've really gained enlightenment after seeking for it.

:)

2008-12-18T00:26:00.001+08:00

2008-12-18T00:26:00.000+08:00

2008-12-16T21:34:00.001+08:00

i miss you :(

2008-12-16T21:34:00.000+08:00

i miss you :(

2008-12-08T01:53:00.000+08:00

im going crazy soon.

2008-10-12T00:24:00.001+08:00

taken from weileng's blog. meaningful.

Where are we heading to ?

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings, but shorter tempers ; wider freeways but narrow viewpoints ; we spend more but have less time ; we buy more but enjoy it less.

We have bigger but smaller families; more convenience but less time ; we have more degress but less sense, more knowledge but less judgement ; more experts but more problems ; more medicine but less wellness.

We drink too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little , drive too fast , get too angry too easily, stay up too late, get up too tired , read too little , watch too much TV and pray too seldom.

We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often. We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life, but not life to years.

We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet the new neighbour . We've conquered outer space, but not inner space. We've done longer things, but not better things.

We've cleared up the air but polluted the soul. We've split the atom , but not our prejudices. We write more but learn less ; we plan more but accomplised less.

We've learned to rush but not to wait, we have higher incomes but lower morals.

We build more computers to hold more information to produce more copies than ever, but have less communication. We've become long on quantity but short on quality.

These are the days 2 incomes but more on divorce , of fancier houses, but broken homes.

These are the days of quick tips , disposable diapers, throw away morality, one night stands, overweight bodies and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill.

Where are we heading ?

If we die tomorrow, the company we are working for could easily replace us in a matter of days. But the families we left behind will feel the loss for the rest of their lives.

And come to think of it, we pour ourseves more into work than to our family . What an unwise investment.

Glutton shawn!

2008-09-25T12:54:00.001+08:00

This is shawn's 2nd round of lunch! Omg!

2008-08-09T10:07:00.002+08:00

AHH. haven't blogged in a super long time!
been in school almost everyday for other stuff and sigh school starts next week and no more play :(

i hope i'll get my first chioce tutorial slots. if i really do my timetable's gona be quite slack BUT no matter what i do, my mondays suck. school ends at 7pm. grr.

one thing i'm definitely lacking now is sleep. been sleeping damn late during e camp for consecutive nights and its really draining! and worst, outbreak!!! they're popping out everywhere man sigh.

yesterday after rag day, we decided to explore the east. so we went to tampines mall. and we decided to take the longest route -regrets. haha the journey was damn long and we both agreed we should have alighted at kallang instead of bedok to catch the train to tampines mall. at tampines mall, we just talked about scamp again. haha i find how we started off quite cute :p

next we went to the airport. walked alot and my knees are hurting. first went to t3, then to t2 and to t1, back to t2, and lastly to t1 again. all because she was sure the nicer viewing mall was at t2. when we reached, she realised it isnt the one. then we went back to t1 and realised its the correct one. hahaa. i knew it was coming! just like how she got mixed up how many stops after a certain stop i should alight from the bus. and it didnt happen just once. aww.

2008-07-08T14:54:00.002+08:00

dedicated to you. :)

love, i see forever in your eyes, i can see heaven in your smile
and when i hold you close i dont wanna let go because deep in my soul i know girl
that youre the light i see, your love means everything to me
i know that we will never part
cos ull always be near, here in my heart

if the sun should refuse to rise and the moon doesnt hang in the night
the tides wont change, seasons rearrange
when the world is through, id still love you :)

and girl youre like an angel from above
sent in to shower me with your love
hold me beneath your wings
tell me all of those things
all the hopes and the dreams we can share
cos ill be your shelter from the storm
ill be the fire that keeps you warm
ill be your light in the dark
cos youll always be near, here in my heart

2008-07-06T14:31:00.002+08:00

LIFES GREAT!
hahha school hasn't started yet but i can feel that my uni life is gona be exciting!! :D

and i really must thank huiling for helping me get a place in scamp if not id be missing out on so much fun!
and my 'boss' and the other 'boss' said they were happy with my performance at tuition so yay. pay rise soon too. :D and i was invited for the a called staff retreat too. aww. feels good to be part of a team :) so hopefully holidays will be in november so i can make it.

play to win!

2008-06-19T00:13:00.004+08:00

todays turbocharge workshop was great!
the kids were a fun bunch.
and i learnt new stuff as well, erm not really new actually.
play to win instead of playing not to lose. i guess ive always adopted the playing not to lose mentality even though i very well knew i must play to win if i wanted to achieve in life. all my beliefs, goals, dreams WILL come to light one day.

and the last part, we were watching a video of helen keller. her story (and her teacher - anne sullivan) somehow touched me. her never say die attitude inspired me. yes she was angry and all but she never gave up. i feel so guilty now. i have this student whos GRR ARGH @#*!@#( and i always said i give up. well, ill take back what i say and work to help him achieve his distinction.
i want to be like that teacher, making a difference to peoples' lives. so far i feel happy to have the opportunity to coach those kids.especially when they score their much deserved A1s. :)
there are people telling me, find others la ur pay so low. but to me it really isnt about the money. i guess its about whether ur happy doing it or not isnt it?

and after the show, the kids were asked to hug their parents. seeing them hug so lovingly and some were even crying, its just so heartening. aw.

2008-06-17T10:56:00.001+08:00

=/ GRRR NO MORE SLOTS FOR CAMP! =\

2008-06-02T01:46:00.001+08:00

Love is giving someone the power to hurt you, but trusting him/her not to.

be back soon.

2008-05-30T11:01:00.000+08:00

back on the 1st!

2008-05-28T23:47:00.001+08:00

ARGH I CANT GET PAST THAT STAGE.
frustrated.
i think ill just delete that stupid game. hahhaha.

another day

2008-05-28T02:11:00.000+08:00

Another day goes by, will never know just wonder why
You made me feel good, made me smile

2008-05-22T11:52:00.002+08:00

last night was a horrible night. couldnt really get to sleep cos my stomach was damn painful the whole night. lay on stomach, tossed left and right, curled up, all of which didnt seem to lessen the pain. =\
then at 330 rebecca wanted to take her SWEET revenge on me by trying to 'wake' me up but too bad i was wide awake.
then in the end two poor souls were on the phone. one in pain the other locked out of the house. haha!

ok i hope the pain doesnt come back.

2008-05-16T16:33:00.001+08:00

:D
two of my students told me they got A1 for math. so happy for them :D hopefully have more good news to come.
and they're my first two students.
like one shot one kill. HAHA.

2008-05-16T14:24:00.001+08:00

got a new mouse after my previous mouse died on me. haha my poor darling is beginning to fall to pieces bit by bit. i keep getting notices of 'virtual memory running low' even though im just solely on facebook.

and i'm looking forward to my dim sum buffet treat. :D

heartwarming.

2008-05-12T16:01:00.005+08:00

when i came online, i saw 'EH GO SEE MY BLOG'
and i saw the following

"haha. blogging about fascinating buildings can WAIT.
for now. it's time to blog about a dear friend of mine. HAHA.
something felt amiss after my previous entry. How can i forget to thank Mr Shawn Tham?!
Thanks A LOT Shawn, cos you've always been there for me, cheering me up, consoling me even when i was at my almost unconsolable state. HAHA. just too bad u got to know me when i was in my crazy emo state. (but why do i get the impression you like talking to emo girls? HAHAHA.) Thanks for everything. It was much more bearable with you around.
it reminds me of what was written in the "who i want to meet" part of Friendster some time back. I think you're one of those who don't have to say it (well you never did say anyway!) but i know i can count on you. :)

sometimes it seems as if i've known you for a long time, but actually, it's still less than a year. HAHA.

Just to let you know, you're very much appreciated. :) I'll be there for you when you need me too!"

hahha so sweet! haha ya lor how can forget mr shawn tham! tsk tsk. okok just joking. serious note now.
i really thought the post would be some juicy news about her and her "ironman" HAHA. im kinda gossipy at times. oooops.
so it was quite a pleasant surprise.

but yeah, some things are JUST left unsaid. hahaha.
right now, i need you to erm dream. dream big and sweeet. HAHA

and yes..its less than a year. hmm 7 months? haha slightly more than half a year.

i also thank you for the times when you were there cheering me up by drawing pink and red cars and so much more!
thanks for adding MSG and other spices in addition to NATURAL sugar into my life. oh and colour too. i'll pass you my contact lenses to be coloured. :)
but grrrr. some other things u just laugh at me. :(
nvm, you're still cute. and im thankful for such a cute and helpful and SWEET and colourful and listening friend. :)

a BIG thank you to MISS REBECCA NG!

bfF w0rx. HAHAHAHA.

2008-05-10T23:21:00.001+08:00

met up with huiling and it was fun! we wanted to catch accuracy of death but decided not to cos its at cathay, very far. haha.
so we just talked. and laughed at our foolish past.

2008-05-07T20:25:00.000+08:00

another bout of flu. i'm low on hp already.

tae yeon

2008-05-03T11:53:00.002+08:00

lovely korean song.

friendships.

2008-04-27T23:49:00.001+08:00

sarah says:
haha no prob la. for you anything man
tree of eternity. says:
hahaha thanks la

awww.

no hope? :(

2008-04-24T12:01:00.001+08:00

宝恩 says:
u?
宝恩 says:
no hope lah
宝恩 says:
change ur nick man
\our hopes. says:
hahaha
no more hope. says:
like that/
no more hope. says:
ahhaah
宝恩 says:
hahahaha
宝恩 says:
i was kidding!
宝恩 says:
is there a song called our hopes?
no more hope. says:
hahah im not sure

:D

2008-04-21T11:11:00.001+08:00

thank goodness the letter from LTA was for road tax and not for speeding. HAHA.

2008-04-17T16:48:00.007+08:00

ktv was fun!
looking forward to the next outing (:
but it sucks that i'm having to nurse a cold at home today AGAIN.

Your Love Style is Agape

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner.

Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare.

You are willing to sacrifice your world for your sweetie.

Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you.

For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

What's Your Love Style?

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Love_styles <-- to see what your love style actually means. haha.

AHHHHHHHHHH.

2008-04-14T03:37:00.004+08:00

i was driving close to 100 and i passed a box.
to my horror, a speed camera.
hope i didn't get captured. (is there supposed to be a flash for stationary speed cameras?) :(
wish me good luck. =\

2008-04-09T16:40:00.000+08:00

will Boa and Utada Hikaru ever come to sg to perform?
i hope so! been hoping since secondary 2. haha.

2008-04-05T01:48:00.001+08:00

oops contradicting entries. but nvm at least i'm not sad! hahah.

2008-04-05T01:43:00.002+08:00

wx says:
to be honest i haven't had a normal relationship since you.

somehow it just warms my heart, but yet i'm reminded of all the stupid things i did to cause us this. i should have cherished it.

honestly, too, i haven't had a normal relationship since you.

running.

2008-04-04T22:12:00.004+08:00

I dream big.
i was someone who didn't think i could do much. i was someone who dared not dream big.

Many times we've all felt like failures at some point or another. Some just live in despair, some move on forgetting the past. I'm sure we have all felt 'why must this happen to me?', and the many 'what ifs'. Well, this phrase sure is apt : What doesnt kill me only makes me stronger.
It took me quite awhile to realise it but I'm glad i did eventually. (theres another one though, tough times don't last, tough men do. I swear at some point i didn't want to belong to the 'tough men' category because I didn't even want to go through the tough times.) But the now-ME says BRING IT ON! haha ok just kidding. Tough times are inevitable and we all must learn to appreciate it(yes, not lament!). remember what doesnt kill me only makes me stronger? yup. So don't despair when times are trying. It could very well be a trial or tribulation but just smile in the face of it and all will be fine. Really.

Just remember,
If God is on my side, whom shall I fear?

Here's one more:
And I said to the man who stood at the gate of the year:
"Give me a light that i may tread safely into the unknown."
And he replied:
Go out into the darkness and put your hand into the Hand Of God. That shall be to you better than light and safer than a known way."

I guess i still have lots to change about myself. for better I hope. haha.
I think i could start by disallowing myself to procrastinate. (:

eternal memory

2008-04-02T22:20:00.002+08:00

In my heart i dreamt of all that used to be
The place we called memories
That now, time has (not) taken all from me
All alone,i wandered down this paradise
How i used to look in your eyes,kissed your smile
And treasured all these times

Memories last forever
Pains that stayed within me
Dreaming of you,they never come true
Magic of the moment
Come and gone forever
Taking your love,away from my world

Now i know,i have to walk this road alone
The road that takes me far from you,from your love
From the one i call my own
Leaving you,i never can forget that time
The time we thought that all was fine
Suddenly i hope that you are mine

Now that i am so far from your touch
Hoping that i can be
Your eternal memory

2008-03-29T02:08:00.002+08:00

are people just plain stupid or dumb?
was reversing and this couple walked right behind me. and the guy kept staring at me. =\
i think the girl didnt dare to look cause she knew they both were in the wrong/crazy to be walking behind a reversing vehicle.

2008-03-27T00:57:00.002+08:00

hiding in the shadows waiting for the sun.
thank God for the sun today! hahah
its been a damn long time since i went tanning. 2 years plus i guess.

but i dont think theres much of a visible difference though. i shall go more often.

if ever..

2008-03-24T14:16:00.002+08:00

was digging through all my older songs and came across jay chou's gui ji. just had the sudden urge to listen to it. haha.

oh well it brings back memories

想着那一天会有人代替..... 又想了一遍你温柔的脸

and until now, no one has been able to replace you wwx.
the two years were my happiest years even though others came along.
ive never forgiven myself and i'm sorry. i really still am.
i wish you well.

SIAN WHERES THE SUN. haha! i only had two oranges for lunch today. tummy lost program. hahaha.

2008-03-23T22:55:00.002+08:00

i've been so tired these few days and i don't know what's wrong. i couldn't even fall asleep last night. nowadays i realise whenever i go out..i'll catch up on sleep on the bus/train even while standing.yes its that bad.sometimes i fall in such a deep sleep that i hit my head on the hand rail behind me. hah.
and sometimes while driving i'll be like wanting to fall asleep. suddenly my parking isnt straight anymore and i got honked at today.
i need some sleep.

2008-03-15T01:14:00.003+08:00

today was quite fun! went to er minds cafe with chris ade and simin.
the service at minds cafe was quite lousy. probably because they were shorthanded. but not bad i won the first round of cluedo and a few rounds of saboteur.
and you stupid bobo pig ade ur finger nails damn long and sharp. VERY PAIN.

supposed to go watch olivia ong at night. pity didnt even manage to catch a glimpse of her. quite disappointed. oh well hope she performs again soon. this time ill be an early bird and stand/sit front row. hahah.

Breathless by Shayne Ward

If our love was a fairy tale
I would charge in and rescue you
On a yacht baby we would sail
To an island where we’d say I do

And if we had babies they would look like you
It’d be so beautiful if that came true
You don’t even know how very special you are

Chorus
You leave me breathless
You’re everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can’t believe that you’re mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you’re leaving me
Breathless

And if our love was a story book
We would meet on the very first page
The last chapter would be about
How I’m thankful for the life we’ve made

And if we had babies they would have your eyes
I would fall deeper watching you give life
You don’t even know how very special you are

You leave me breathless
You’re everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can’t believe that you’re mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you’re leaving me

You must have been sent from heaven to earth to change me
You’re like an angel
The thing that I feel is stronger than love believe me
You’re something special
I only hope that I’ll one day deserve what you’ve given me
But all I can do is try
Every day of my life

You leave me breathless
You’re everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can’t believe that you’re mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you’re leaving me
Breathless

You leave me breathless
You’re everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can’t believe that you’re mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you’re leaving me
Breathless
Breathless

license!

2008-03-11T16:51:00.004+08:00

yay i passed my driving test on the first attempt! thank God for answering my prayers man.thank you too to everyone who prayed for me! (: no difficult lane changes, no u turn and no difficult crank course. :D in fact i think i was on the road for 10minutes only. in other words the tester cut short the test route for me. and he was nice. he guided me throughout. like where to stop and when to go. he even hinted when i should change lanes. haha! again my instructor was saying before, during your test u need to know what to do you know! the tester is not going to tell you anything!!
ah and throughout the test my hands and feet were trembling(very hard to control clutch and accelerator) i stalled once during the practice and once during the test.
yup although the test route was short he kept ticking on the paper in the car. i thought wah siao liao so many ticks. haha lucky those ticks didnt have any demerit points accompanying. stuff like insufficient acceleration,delay in moving off, wide turning and failure to use engine brake.
at the end the tester said 'okay, you passed. you drive very well'
HAHA thats because the route was short. THANK GOD AGAIN! :D
i think the Yes Sir and Good Morning Sir somewhat helped too.
im damn lucky. everyone in the circuit gave way to me even though they had the right of way and when i was coming out from the crank course, there were two walls blocking. one guy even helped me stop the traffic and signal for me when it is safe to move off.

finally i dont hafta hear my instructor's constant and discouraging nagging anymore! hahah seriously i think he thought id fail. the moment he opened his mouth, the words were 'like that cannot. sure fail. or you drive like that how u going to pass? dont waste your time. and errr 'on that day if you fail must go and book your final theory again(cause mine expires 2 days after on the 13th)'

birdy

2008-03-07T18:53:00.003+08:00

there your bird! ahaha

somewhere i belong

2008-03-04T20:29:00.002+08:00

when this began i had nothing to say and i get lost in the nothingness inside of me
and i lived it all out to find im not the only person with these things in mind
but all the vacancy the words revealed is the only thing ive got left to feel.

the leap years.

2008-03-02T22:01:00.002+08:00

"Coincidence is God's way of remaining anonymous." - Albert Einstein.

"In three words, I can sum up everything I've learnt about life: it goes on." - Robert Frost

"A person often meets his destiny on the road he took to avoid it" - Jean de La Fontaine

sing ACS forevermore.

2008-03-01T21:41:00.003+08:00

today is Founder's day. happy 122nd. The Best Is Yet To Be!
and i thank God for seeing me through 12years in AC.

wakeboarding!

2008-03-01T01:51:00.008+08:00

wakeboarding was damn fun la! initially i didn't expect it to be so fun cause i thought 3/4s of my time would be spent floating in the water. hahah lucky i managed to get used to it quite quickly. good try la rebecca and colin. :) but really, rebecca's last attempt was great! hahah really pity i didnt record it for her. (even the driver went WELL DONE! THATS STANDING ON THE BOARD)
hahah
ya i remember, aiya get up from toilet need strength anot? just be natural la! ...must be firm not like jelly. hahah.
and ah i think not because my pictures nice la. because i could stand nicely thats why. :p

but urgh my whole body is aching now. =\

2008-02-22T22:23:00.000+08:00

1 Corinthians 13:1-13

If I speak in the tongues of men and angels,
but have not love,
I have become sounding brass or a tinkling symbol.

And if I have prophecy and know all mysteries and all knowledge,
and if I have all faith so as to remove mountains,
but have not love, I am nothing.

And if I dole out all my goods, and
if I deliver my body that I may boast
but have not love, nothing I am profited.

Love is long suffering,
love is kind,
it is not jealous,
love does not boast,
it is not inflated.

It is not discourteous,
it is not selfish,
it is not irritable,
it does not enumerate the evil.
It does not rejoice over the wrong, but rejoices in the truth

It covers all things,
it has faith for all things,
it hopes in all things,
it endures in all things.

Love never falls in ruins;
but whether prophecies, they will be abolished; or
tongues, they will cease; or
knowledge, it will be superseded.

For we know in part and we prophecy in part.

But when the perfect comes, the imperfect will be superseded.

When I was an infant,
I spoke as an infant,
I reckoned as an infant;

when I became [an adult],
I abolished the things of the infant.

For now we see through a mirror in an enigma, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know as also I was fully known.

But now remains
faith, hope, love,

these three;

but the greatest of these is love.

2008-02-21T22:03:00.003+08:00

went down to nus to crash simin's lecture. had fun! but damn suay. after the pimple lecture i realised i had a painful spot on my nose. hope it doesnt grow bigger.

went to take the body fat analyser. haha i was abit disappointed with the height reading but nevertheless, i was happier when simin had higher body fat percentage. KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK. WALK LESS, TAKE SHUTTLE SERVICES MORE OFTEN.

when chemistry lect got too boring.

surprised to see michelle too. and of course melo.

2008-02-15T14:55:00.002+08:00

haha i have nothing to do now i'll just upload pics of my vday gift.

hmm the feeling of having so much freedom is damn shiok. im enjoying every single bit of it though it can get quite boring sometimes. BUT its okay it beats having to chant everyday 'xxx days left to ord. tahan.' hahahha.
my driving test's next month but i still suck at parallel parking. quite worried abt it. hopefully theres enough time to practice. haha.
i'd most probably get a job after the test if i pass to kill time. i shouldn't be wasting my life away like that.

2008-02-13T14:13:00.000+08:00

when you look me in the eyes, i catch a glimpse of heaven.

ORD!

2008-02-08T16:43:00.001+08:00

ORDed!
hahah finally after 1year10months of suffering.!
and there isnt any better time to ord than this because of cny!
i think my entire ns life(including the next 10years) sucks though.

but anyways i still am happy to see my pink ic. :D

ORD!!

2008-02-03T17:42:00.000+08:00

HAHA 2.5 DAYS!
monday - attend talks and surveys on some ns integration and transition crap.
tuesday- DE-KIT, sign clearance, and probably the last soc test.
wednesday- cny celebration, collect pink ic, drag duffel bag out, ORD. ((((: :DDD

pleaseplease.

2008-01-29T20:24:00.000+08:00

please let tmr's soc test be the last one.

2008-01-28T16:18:00.000+08:00

i love my k810i! haha
anyway 9 more days to ord. wah thats 1 week and 2 days. finally the countdown counter has turned to a single digit. my goodness. from 3digits to A SINGLE DIGIT. haha im getting quite excited.! and off till tomorrow night, so thatd be 8 days to ord by the time im back in camp.

watching the house later. haha too bad i cant find any mufflers so...id take the risk of not bringing ear plugs. hahah!

2008-01-28T10:49:00.001+08:00

2008-01-27T13:05:00.000+08:00

93 words

Touch Typing

2008-01-21T21:13:00.001+08:00

just a quick update before i leave for camp
was just browing through friendster i saw one of e photos around
true, especially when relating to the army.

We are the unwilling,
Led by the unqualified,
Doing the unneccessary,
For the ungrateful.

we are unwilling nsfs who under the command of lousy officers(seriously, our atec was screwed because of them), doing the unneccessary, for the ungrateful.(they never appreciate what we do)

2008-01-21T12:39:00.000+08:00

16days left to ord and we're still being treated as if we just got posted in. we still have to book in at 2230? wth. seriously this unit is just screwed up. to them, only people who've passed soc and have gotten a gold for ippt are humans. the rest are just slaves who don't deserve anything at all. i mean those people who got silver and soc pass arent too bad already what.

off days owed from last year untill now and i doubt we'd have any time to clear them.
and to those pitiful people who ord in march, my sympathy goes out to you. can you believe it, the 3 consecutive days of guard duties of the first 3 days of cny got 'awarded' to support coy. heh deepavali and hari raya all that chinese do la. cny also chinese do. ?? right.
and the csm still said 'ill try to fight off the 2nd day for you all'
haha i cant believe he even has to fight it off. its cny for goodness' sake.
thank God all the up theres are regulars. i don't ever wana see them again for reservist.
believe me, you'll never find anyone who would be sad to step out of my unit.

i know people from other units who feel nostalgic. at least they have fond memories to speak of.
well we just have none.
and after two years, i still don't quite get how and why the army works this certain way.
theres a last soc test next week. those who fail it have to go for rt.
haha if rt is for you to pass soc, and theres no more soc test, then rt for what? clearly just rt for the sake of it lor. and to think they always tell us since bmt, don't go through motion, don't do things just for the sake of doing. HEH. yea right.

i was still complaining to my cousin and she asked me this, 2 years already you still not used to it meh?
seriously, i cant. its too much shit from all of them to get used to and to take it in our stride.

2008-01-13T22:36:00.000+08:00

ah went to shop againt today but like not much harvest again. managed to get only a pair of berms. haha. later went on to meet cous and aunt to have dinner. dempsey road's quite a nice place. although its quite a simple place, it gives the soothing feeling dining there.. the ben and jerrys theres quite a nice place to chill and hang out too.
anyway damn sian man tmr night book in. cant even fully enjoy my block leave. oh wells. 24days to ord.

2008-01-12T09:41:00.000+08:00

finally back from atec. :D haha when everybody passed the gates of the camp, everyone was shouting ORD LOH.
25 more days. hahahahahh. can't wait to regain my freedom man.
anyway this atec was damn relax for everybody except e drivers. drivers damn xiong. midnight still must drive long distances. and throughout e drive my eyes were half closed. oops. thank God i didn't land up in the water body. yep usually for previous excercises they had to walk long distances with their heavy load. haha now its just deploy and wait for the opfor.
there was even a point where we had to deploy in the same place for 12hours. sianess!
initially we had all our gear on, but as time passed all of us including e pc couldnt really be bothered. we just took everything off(lbv helmet rifle) and left them on the jeep. even when the umpire came, we thought were getting into trouble. but he just mentioned eh close the tailboard. dont block the road. haha.
anyway just glad its really over. but sian cannot really enjoy the block leave. hmm 1 more brigade live firing and combat shoot to go.

2008-01-05T13:23:00.000+08:00

through the fire
through the limit to the wall
for a chance to be with you
i gladly risk it all
through the fire
through whatever come what may
for a chance in loving you
id take it all the way
right down to the wire, even through the fire.

2008-01-01T17:51:00.000+08:00

2008 is finally here. have been waiting for it since 7th april 2006. hmm, but i dont know. i dont really have the new year mood now. i guess my calender's new year is on the 6th Feb 2008.
well it has been a longggggggggg 2 years. looking back, i still think 2 years is a damn long time. bmt ninja, pop still posted to 4sir. ultimate suayness. (some people may say, aiya 2 years only very fast one la.) ya right. come to my unit and youll see. (a csm whos..er #$*. a ps who's..aiya whatever u want to fill in. and the subsequent route marches after a so-called LAST route march. get it? )
atec is in 6 days time. hopefully itd be slack.
and yes, there's nothing else except ord on my mind. cos its weighing me down. like the worst burden in my 20years. 2 years of being at the mercy of...people who dont know wth theyre doing and people who flare up easily for no reason. haha. want a bbq after ord? forget it eh please.
probably after that u wouldnt see me online on weekends so often cos the idiot keeps threatening to make us stay back on saturdays AND sundays if we dont pass soc. aiya whatever la eh. i only got 3 weekends. u want u take la. after that dont bother me anymore. "go and pass your soc, dont owe the battalion anything" hah wth. the battalion owes me so much more. i still have 5 off days and i have not cleared a single one day cos my ps is just a timid and hmm stupid?
i know i sound mean but stupid is already being very kind.

but i guess this year has been good. i thank God for the new friendships. haha and the best of all, theyre great friendships!
i dont know man, we think so alike even to the extent of exchanging xmas gifts. haha! and ahem of course, THE FACE. HAHA!

and to rebecca, dont worry la. after i get my pink ic id only complain my ic photo ugly. HAHA. anyway, thanks for being sucha great friend (: nxt year we WILL celebrate our 21st together. hahahha. and please ah. 2008 will be great okay! don't be so emo. God will make a way when there seems to be no way. He works in ways we cannot see. He will make a way. (:

ren yih, haha please don't thank guard duty like its such a helpful event! im sure even without guard duty we would still have the chance to talk somehow. haha.

so happy new year to all whose new year starts on 1st Jan. ill celebrate my own new year after the 6th. ermm..then again, its literally chinese new year on 7th. NO MORE WORRIES FOR GUARD DUTY.

2007-12-31T01:15:00.000+08:00

缓缓飘落的枫叶像思念
我点燃烛火温暖岁末的秋天
极光掠夺天边，北风掠过想你的容颜
我把爱烧成了落叶
却换不回熟悉的那张脸

2007-12-30T23:35:00.000+08:00

why do fat animated animals always look cute when theyre fat(think theodore from alvin and the chipmunks) while people get made fun of when they're..round?

haha.

heal my heart and make it clean
open up my eyes to the things unseen
show me how to love like You have loved me.
break my heart for what breaks Yours
everything i am for Your Kingdom's cause
as i walk from earth into eternity.
Hosanna Hosanna in the highest.

black parade.

2007-12-25T14:23:00.000+08:00

and on we carry through the fears, disappointed faces of your peers
take a look at me cause i could not care
do or die, you'll never make me cause the world will never take my heart
you can try, but you'll never break me
i wont explain or say i'm sorry
i'm not ashamed, i'm gona show my scar.

2007-12-24T02:05:00.000+08:00

words of life eternal heal my broken soul
to whom will i go, theres no one else but You alone
Jesus, Jesus
no other name no one the same like You
The Truth The Life The Way

ah my whole body is still aching from badminton on thursday. =\
and thankyou rebecca for the xmas gift (:

went to watch alvin and e chipmunks on fri. it was...er not bad la. the chipmunks were quite cute. sort of reminds me of huiling. HAHA.
but friday wasnt a good day. whole day keep eating. now its quite obvious. :(
daytime snacked, night still had supper. all e oily food. ahhh.

2007-12-22T01:48:00.001+08:00

"Yesterday was my first time attending a church wedding (JC Biology teacher) and it was really an eye-opener for me.All the worship before the ceremony made me missed the Mondays in ACJC when we had to do worships and some preaching.But this positive feeling towards ACJC was quickly extinguished by an ex-classmate . " -quoted from someone's blog.
damn true man.
i asked the person in question to send photos and her reply was
"send u for wad"
....
plus, a mere 8 dollars only must keep nagging throughout the service for it. :\

so anyway this was e only photo i had from the wedding

my very-fun-to-irritate-classmate. haha!
will miss you when you're on ur overseas exchange prog. :)

2007-12-16T19:50:00.001+08:00

well when you go, don't ever think i'll make you stay
and maybe when you get back
i'll be off to find another way

when after all this time you still own
you're still the good for nothing i dont know
so take your gloves and get out
better get out while you can.

when you go, would you even turn to say hey i dont love you like i did yesterday.
sometimes i cry so hard from pleading
so sick and tired of all the needless beating
but baby when they knock you down and out its where you ought to stay

and after all the blood you still own
another dollar's just a another blow
so fix your eyes and get up
get up while you can

when you go, would you even turn to say hey i dont love you like i did yesterday
when you go, w ould you have the guts to say i dont love you like i loved you yesterday.

2007-12-16T00:19:00.000+08:00

ah my neck, back and legs still ache from the jerry can route march. grr.
always like that, for nothing conduct route march. especially just before booking out.
but thankfully the next few weeks are 3 day weeks ((:

met with fuzhi on friday. glad to have gotten the chance to catch up. only thing you never bring your girls. if not more entertaining. LOL.

and today attending former bio teacher's wedding. ah her husband was from acjc too. and she was really pretty.
xx: "how pretty anot?"
me:"which michelle u talking about?"
xx:"the bride confirm pretty, so the other one"
HAHA.

2007-12-09T19:33:00.000+08:00

It's Real
Lying downUnderneath the stars thinking about the way you lookedInto my eyes and told me how you feelI don't know if my heart and mind are singing the same tuneNeed to knowCause within me is a mix of fear, a little thrill
Can’t believe what I feel is realFeelings that's hard to concealI'd hold you in my arms if you were mine forevermore
You and I,I'd never thought I'd fall for you.The best thing underneath the twinkling starsMy heart desires to be close to you yeahSo you can take my hand and embrace me now.Minimizing all my fears and I know,That all my doubts will disappear,there's nothing to conceal,it's real.
And I tried; I can't seem to get myself to think of anything but youI keep falling deeper that it gets sweeter tooEverything, every single thing about you touches my heart in a way.I had never thought like this before.It’s realCan’t believe what I feel is realFeelings that's hard to concealI'd hold you in my arms if you were mine forevermore
You and I, I’d never thought I’d fall for you.The best thing underneath the twinkling stars,My heart desires to be close to youSo you can take my hand and embrace me now.Minimizing all my fears and I know,That all my doubts will disappear,There’s nothing to conceal.It’s real.

2007-12-02T21:00:00.000+08:00

finally shifted back home. =D

sian book in :(

2007-12-01T10:34:00.000+08:00

yesterday was great!

met adeline for cheesecake. and she's the piggy la. eat so much. HAHA

then later we were damn malu la.

when we were in the cinema, there was this grp of school girls staring at us.

'errr sorry i think u guys are siting at the wrong seat'

'ehhhhh...ours is c5 and c6 also'

awhile later

'EH BUT URS IS for 1130(we were in the 2pm show and that was what we actually wanted)'

......

so actually its the cashier's fault. hahaha.

anyway, you're really just the piggy. no doubts abt it. sorry!

went on to meet grandos in the evening and we watched the tattooist. haha genre of e show is 'Horror' but not really horrifying. =\

and then we were supposed to take emo shots but i guess we don't really have emo faces at this pt of time. haha

2007-11-25T18:21:00.000+08:00

well i was there on that day they sold the cause for the Queen and when the light's all went out we watched our lives on the screen. i hate the ending myself but it ended with an alright scene.
it was the roar of the crowd which gave the heartache to sing. it was a lie when they smiled and said you wont feel a thing and as we ran through the cops we laughed so hard it'd sting.
if i'm so wrong, how could u listen all night long? now will it matter after im gone because you never learnt anything. you're just a sad song, with nothing to say about a life long wait for a hospital stay.
mcr - disenchanted.

HMM. i'm surprise someone actually shares the same thoughts as me.

next week's gona be xiong. just looking forward to cheesecake with adeline and of course going back to church after a million years. heh.

i could say this is one of e worst weeks i ever had.

and just cant wait till sarah comes back from canada then we can talk about our good ol days. oh and dajie too. cant wait to meet so many people after my ord. 7 months of free time yay.
and i still cant decide if i should switch courses or not.

2007-11-23T23:29:00.001+08:00

my ps is damn stupid and knows nuts about anything.

thankfully for our black faces, we could book out and book in tmr morn for guard duty.

this week sucked, so will the next and the following.
goodness, 6th feb please come quickly :(

2007-11-18T00:47:00.000+08:00

the previous entry was on friendships and i couldnt really express myself well. but last week i was reading an article and it was on friendship. i quite agree with the author. lemme quote.

' there are 3 kinds of friendships . friendships of utility, friendships of pleasure and perfect friendship. the highest and noblest of these is perfect friendship, where we love people not merely because they are useful or pleasant, but because of who they are. this is what most of us would call true or real friendship - Friendship with a capital "F". friendships like this give value and meaning to our lives.
Companionship is the feeling of closeness that comes about whenever people mix around.However companionship and friendship are not the same....there is not doubt that companionship is a good thing and companions are friends, of a sort. but they are friends with a small "f" - no substitute for the intimate friends we all want and need.
Friendships arises out of mere Companionship when two or more of the companions discover that they have in common some insight or interest.. which the otheres do not share and which, till that moment, each beileved to be his own unique treasure(or burden) '

haha i guess although many of us seek perfect friendship, but somehow we always end up seeking friendships of utility and pleasure. i'm guilty of that myself and its something ill work on.

this week was quite good except for the soc training conducted by that $*@(. haha
and yay we got a day off on friday. friday was well spent (:
it was quite funny when we met. we were both at different parts of lido waiting for each other(we both thought the other party was 'walking to lido'). but she clever la. sit down and wait. i stood around and waited instead. stupid right. hahah.
watched bratz with adeline. and yes i didnt fall asleep. got chicks how to fall asleep. haha (i think i was the only guy in the cinema).
also managed to get a shirt i like. im quite fussy so its quite difficult finding shirts that i actually like. haha. new wardrobe, new clothes :D
the only minus point for friday is i ate too much i think. oops

next week's gona be depressing. booking out on sunday even though battalion live firing doesn't involve us. greeaatt. and till now i dont konw if i should change course. show me the light. lol.

2007-11-11T11:53:00.000+08:00

wana live my life with You
wana give all that i do
wana have each day so close to You
and love You more and more
wana spend more time with You
wana confide in You
wana laugh and sing and cry with You and love You more.
so i will run untill i find you where Your arms are open wide
its only when im near You im safe inside
youre the only one i treasure, Youre the one that i adore
to be with You forever and love You more and more.
parachute band - forever more

this song really touches. can ask me for it (:

this week has been...okay..except for the guard duty on wed. mood and day spoiler. watched lions for lambs on thursday. haha it was sort of difficult to comprehend. didnt know about the 3 level political thing untill rebecca mentioned it. oops haa.
but ive learnt one thing though. about friendship. the closeness the two characters(cant rmb their names but they were buddies from school, and enlisted into the army together) had on screen touched me.
for me, i do treasure friendships very much. although i've been trying hard to mend one all these years, i think i've failed. well, it was my fault anyway. i'm not sure if she has really forgiven me but till now i'm sorry for all i've done. i really am. when she sms'ed while i was in brunei, i was shocked and yet happy. as she put it, 'how could we be the best of friends one day and then total strangers the next?' i thought everything would be okay from there, but things are just as stagnant now.
well, i hope she is happy now and i think she is. i miss the times when we could just share everything together, we would turn to each other first and run to each other whenever we had any problems. and all the problems just seem to go away by itself. haha oh well, 'oi shawn stop looking back! look forward!' right? well, can one ever forget such memories? must sometimes rake it up to smile and laugh at ourselves for awhile. heh.

and as for the other one that has been stirring, i guess i cant do anything more. 'i dont think we can be good friends anymore' haha. i tried! not as if i'm the one at fault and asking for forgiveness anyway. haha. well nvm la. i'll just treasure my present and existing friendships (:

ANYWAY watched stardust on fri with chris adeline and simin. thanks to chris i got to know wonderful people like adeline and simin. and that day was sinful. keep eating all the unhealthy stuff. luckily simin took some fries. haha actually you could have all then i wouldnt be the one putting on weight :P and when adeline said i bought smth for you. haha i was shocked la(cause i kept complaining about pimple redness and scars on my face HAHA). thanks for the cream! the scars are really fading. ((:

and yes yirong, we'll have breakfast lunch dinner together after the 6th feb. HAHA. hope to see you in nus. then everyday also can breakfastlunchdinner together. (:

today's book in day. sad. wish me luck for the week. and THANK GOD I BOOK OUT FRI MORNING. HAHA. bye.

2007-11-06T13:32:00.000+08:00

to free yourself is to wipe away your tears and be far sighted. i know i shouldn't be gripping too tight.
you have the freedom to yourself and i have mine. i have to find a way and just keep walking this narrow road.

well, the january batch have ord'ed. and even gotten back their pink ic. when can i get mine? haha. 92 dreadful, tiring, hateful days to go. i know some people have wonderful memories from army life and they all say when you ord everything will just be fond memories. ya right. i wouldnt want to have any memories, fond(like dont really have haah) or not from army. these two years were the lowest point of my 20yearsofexistence. however its during this time where you see all sorts of people. unreasonable people, people after petty gains, plain lazy people etc. many would say army's a good time to experience these sorta stuff so that you would know what to do in the outside world. i beg to differ. i mean army and outside organisations are two different things altogether, cant apply the same method. see, in the army when you are performing below expectations, they want to keep you in service longer(db,extras,confinement,rt and whatnot). in the civilian world, you get kicked out immediately. haha if only army was like that. i just dont see why they cannot loosen their control over us. 92days to ord? no one will believe. ok back to the experiences, for me i'd rather not have experienced it at all. because if you're gona experience the same thing, why not experience it later rather than sooner? experiencing it twice just equates to double misery. haha.

in addition, army is a funny place. always making us come up with ideas to improve life AND AT THE SAME TIME must save cost. where got such thing?! the best idea is just to make all combat units stay out lar. no need to provide food, shelter, water and electricity. doesn't that save cost altogether? the only way to improve life is really just not having to book in at all on the weekends.

and in my unit we always get screwed upside down for not marching properly or having longhair(trust me, their long hair would mean short hair actually.those whove seen me, my hair is considered long to them). wth has hair length and marching gotta do with discipline? pui. i mean i can understand the need for a neat and tidy hairstle. but the back and sides must be as short as 1mm? HMM. weird right?!
well i think everything's our fault even though it really isn't. welcome to the place of a thousand warped logics, deranged minds.

i guess no one would really understand unless you're from my unit.

but thankfully for more sane, rational and helpful people, they make life in camp more bearable.

2007-10-28T17:21:00.001+08:00

thanks for e wishes!birthday was great! but damn sad la had to do guard duty from thurs night to fri morning. was damn tired the whole day but i still had fun!

supposed to meet rebecca at 1 to iceskate and later it was pushed back two hrs cause i overslept. oops. iceskating was fun! really enjoyed it (: and though she said it was her first time, its quite unbelievable la. cos most of e time i was trying to catch up with her. and she made a very good point about not following people with wet pants. cos they must have fallen down lotsa times. HAHA. hopefully the downtown east skating rink will be built for u la ah. then hopefully the hazardous people will just stay at je and not go down to pasir ris to hao lian again.

met phy after that! thankyou very much phy. (: i love the shirt and balloons and the cake! and of course the lighter you couldnt light. hhahaha. darth is getting weaker though. and im sure one day youll also be like that indian la. look up then snap snap snap. HAHA. and please cheer up okay (:

went to church after that for stayover and thankyou guys for the cake and erm ice cream prata. hahaa.

thankyou everyone who made my birthday so special. ((:

2007-10-21T20:21:00.000+08:00

grr i dread next week. pls let me get through the week happily and without much complaints. sometimes i wonder why things are like that. anyway not my fault haha! but well i guess it's alright. i know i have many wonderful others to count on (:

i thank God for keeping me sane all these while. God of my forever, and forever i'm with You.
i pray i survive next week's training to celebrate my birthday instead of death anniversay next week. HAHA

Betrayal.

2007-10-20T12:51:00.000+08:00

happiness or sadness whom shall decide? with all whole-hearted effort put in but unrecognised, how does the heart quieten down?
being betrayed silently, ive realised it's so easy to lose something you cherish so much. is there really a need to become strangers? probably.
with regards to your betrayal, only time could possibly(or not) replace those hurtful memories .
i've become strong again but if you were to act this way still, i could only say sorry and goodbye.

now its all said and done.

2007-10-15T17:19:00.000+08:00

i never saw it coming i should have started running a long time ago.
and i never thought id doubt you.
im slowly getting closure, and im finally getting better.
now im picking up the pieces from spending these years putting my heart back together.

2007-10-13T11:15:00.000+08:00

ahhhhh i managed to get my threadless shirts i bought back! thought itd be gone when i left it at rtc. but who knows e nxt day my mum called to say eh ur aunt has ur shirts. thank God! haha.

less than 20days more to go before the ord counter will hit 2 digits - 99days. sigh i really cant wait to ord. i guess nobody is as happy as us(4sir) to ord cos its like a hell camp. probably somewhat similar to a prison if not worse. well with superiors who cant think properly or explodes like a volcano randomly, the best way out of this is to ord, not even to ignore it.

and i cant wait to start uni soon! though its kinda contradictory id rather choose to start the school term in august rather than in may. HAHA

recently i've been thinking about lots of stuff and why some things end up the way they are.
and i remembered 'God places these discouragements to test us' from church. yes i know its a test but i still wonder why discourage us in the first place! haha. enlightenment soon?

2007-10-06T09:14:00.000+08:00

now i'm almost over you, i've almost shook these blues.
so when you come back around after painting the town you'll see that i'm almost over you.
your heart was cold. leaving was such an easy thing for you but it tore me apart.
time heals all wounds they say but i feel it doesn't. can a scar be healed, especially when the cut was a very deep one? i dont think so. when
i could only forgive you and try to forget all my shattered dreams when you got the love you wanted and left me the misery.
i should be almost over you.

2007-09-30T17:15:00.000+08:00

God of my youth forever.
your call on my life took me o'er
your love will see me through all my days
i stand here by Your grace.
on this altar, ive written my life
tells of stories i have with you my Lord.
i want the world to know

God of my forever and forever i'm with You
my life is saved with a price
your sacrifice redeemed my soul

God of my forever and forever i will sing
my greatest honour will always be to serve my Lord and King.

this song touches me quite greatly. it just somehows makes me feel different. cant explain why or how.

ord in 4 months. please come quickly. :(

2007-09-23T20:12:00.000+08:00

previous week had live firing and 200bux flew away just like that. the laser aiming device is useless for the night shoot. heh

previous week also passed extremely slow. no idea why but it just seemed so.

this week was at least better. nights out on wed and coy cohesion on friday.
the coy went to sentosa for the cohesion. it seemed quite boring at first when we first reached and stoned for awhile. after that everyone was 'oi scissors paper stone, loser go ask #' haha.
the 'treasure hunt' or rather location hunt was boring. totally mood killer.
after i came back everybody surrounded me and i got carried and got thrown into the water. =\

then later had to play a game which required two of us to eat oranges. and the oranges were extremely sour. it was quite an awful sight. just stuffing oranges with sand into our mouths.

and alas our platoon was the overall winner. heh i guess when it comes to this sorta thing we will win.

and finally thank you colin esmonde pecklian for the bible (:
like it very much and you're all appreciated (:

2007-09-09T19:37:00.001+08:00

why do you seem so troubled?

2007-09-02T13:45:00.000+08:00

i never felt nothing in the world like this before. now i'm missing you and i'm wishing that you would come back through my door. why did you have to go? you could have let me know. you could have stayed but you wouldnt give me a chance. with you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand and all my tears they keep running down my face. why did you turn away?
so why does your pride make you run and hide? are you that afraid of me? i know its a lie what you keep inside and this is not how you wanted it to be.

was packing my stuff into the boxes and the cup you gave to me on my birthday brought back many memories. world's greatest friend - that was what was printed on the cup. but what's happening now? i still can't believe you said 'and i hope that we won't even be friends anymore'.

2007-08-27T18:03:00.001+08:00

ah ahm sucked. booked in at 7pm to sleep but couldnt sleep at all. heh and the next day had a terrible headache.

went for service in the afternoon and then watched Secret again after that. heh i cant believe colin and a few others cried =\ haha.

and back to camp again tonight sian. hopefully friday comes quickly.

i miss you..

whywhywhy?

2007-08-19T11:28:00.000+08:00

flames to dust
lovers to friends(or not?)
why do all good things come to an end? :(

this week passed very quickly and i'm dreading it. its like freedom gone in a flash.

other than this..it still comes back to me. every single thing. i dont know how to overcome it. i tried so hard and so many times but it just fails.

2007-08-14T16:28:00.000+08:00

我受够了等待
你所谓的安排到底多久才来？

2007-08-05T18:37:00.000+08:00

sigh been quite sick since friday. please heal soon in time for block leave next week please please please.
festival of praise was quite good though esmonde put it as silently enthusiastic. haha.
hopefully the next two days in camp will be bearable and then we'll all enjoy the leave.

You've opened the eyes of my heart
and i've finally seen how things truly are. (:

i will bless Your name
high above my circumstances
give you all the praise for Your mercy and grace

2007-08-04T09:13:00.000+08:00

i'm waiting here for my life to change
when the waters stir you can rearrange me
just one touch is all i need
ive nothing much but the wounds i feel
im looking for the hand of the miracle Man

Holy, are you who was and is to come.
im standing at the feet of the miracle maker.
im holding on with your life in mine
living water's come, and you've rearranged me.

thankyou Lord.

2007-07-29T20:13:00.000+08:00

when you're all alone and you need a light someone to guide through the night just remember i am here to hold you close and dry your tears. just when you thought you're falling you know ill always be right there..

when you need someone to help you to the end to catch you when you fall, ill be there through it all. just when you thought you're losing everything, you know ill always be right there..

you're the best i ever had.

even though everything would be at my expense..but still im willing.